what would tomorrow bring?
I have been a victim of intense fears of my own. Lately, I have been taking risks. Great risks. But I don’t know until when would these risks be worth fighting for. Lately, I have been thinking if I make or made right decisions. Some may be right, most might be wrong. It took me a month not to write anything and it saddened me, because even I myself cannot understand my decisions about certain stuffs and I have no one to open up to whatsoever.
I have been reading a certain book entitled, “Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and his Years of Pilgrimage” and somehow I can relate to him. He has his own decisions and as his good friend Ao had told him, “There is no going back.” That’s how I see my decisions nowadays. That if I make a certain move, I can never undo it again. And it may make or break me as a person. Somehow I see myself being alone, because I feel alone. No one else opens up to me too much and it saddens me a lot, but yeah, life goes on.
I’m currently in a difficult situation right now and I don’t know what would happen in the future. I just hope the people I am relying to right now, would be with me until the end of all these crises.
As I was told before, there would be lots of ass hats in the world, but I just have to deal with them.
And that is my current decision for now.
To risk and to see if it’s worth risking for. To work and study like never before. And to love and see until where I can be capable of.
What would tomorrow bring us all?